i feel extremely stupid. and proud. and scared. mostly scared.
two years. two years.
my biggest battle now is reaching that third year.
i’ve never been so scared about NOT being in a class. i mean, its p&p, can you blame me? its pretty much fight till the death. 10 spots. 18 people wanting them. half of them already been in the class, distraught that they will not get that second or third year. i feel stupid for not being able to get in the first round of auditions, i must have done something that showed them that i didnt deserve to be in the class or something. that seriously sucks. i feel scared that one of those 10 spots arent for me. senior year without doyle? no.
soo yeah, fight till the death. fight until im dead. and aprt of p&p.
on a lighter note, im in theater dance ensemble. i think im going to take it next year, with or without robinson. love modern, love foster-king, but i guess td is a new path i should take.
haha i thought i bombed td emsemble auditions too. and i thought i did well at p&p auditions. haha what the heck.
mm time for purlie.
I love calculus. How nerdy of me to say, but I do. Math in general makes sense to me. Most people say, why do math if you’re just doing problems that have already been solved? Yeah that makes sense, but math is the one thing where I know for sure if I’m right or wrong. Everywhere else, there are grey areas. Not in math. Just problems with right or wrong answers, and discoveries with right and wrong answers.
I like the control of math. i guess that comes from the dominating side of me. I like knowing that with numbers and logic, I can solve an infinite amount of problems. It’s very enpowering to me.
And, for all those people who don’t think it applies to “real” life, it does.
technically, you can’t figure out the meaning of life.
but with calculus, you can figure out how BIG life it :]
every individual life creates an infinitesmal difference in the whole mass of human life.
the sum of infinitesmal differences is an intergral.
therefore, life in an integral!!
and since life is an integral, the solution of life is an area. (integral is area.)
and using the formula for the integral of life,
( you find the formula by differetiating the human significance with respect to time),
you find the area of life to be the size of a size 8 shoe box.
(men’s. women’s. or kid’s size 8, I don’t know)
and you all thought that calculus wasn’t useful :]
p.s. props to mrs roberts, for finding this cool calculus factoid. :]
Oh Crap. I have Cancer.
saw this going through other blogs today.
a few weeks ago would have been three months since your passing.
you seemed to have had a good life.
have fun in heaven, whoever you are.
GO BEARS :]
