man, i really couldn’t have wished for a better christmas before college. its all about christmas eve in my fam, and it was quite lovely.so i get to LA, help the marquezes with presents and errands. then, we’re off to the tutols to meet up with everyone and eat. everyones all spread out through the house, the guys playing video games, the adults watching tv and me and the girls singing random christmas carols very badly. hahah. then, my ninang decides to have games for the first time every for christmas. the whole famly gets into teams, and we al have these pictures describing christmas songs and we gotta guess what songs each picture was. soo funny. all the lolas get together, the aunties, and the guys and whatever. team 2 baby!! haha. me, ate jesi, jasmine, ria, and tata. hahah. all the guys were cheating trying to take answers, while everyone else all intense into it sooo funny. and, yes, we won 20 bucks. team two!! heck yes. hahathen, we got this “pera or cahon” game going on. haha pretty much deal or no deal filipino style. hilarious. money, no cahon, cahon, no, money, hahah. man, i chose the box. got ten bucks and lipgloss compared to 20 bucks. deng, haha, at least i didnt get a tissue box like my little cousin. haha poor kid.then midnight comes. presents! woo, thanks to my fam for giving such nice gifts. i liked all of them :]after that, people start drifting off, including me, falling asleep in the corner on the floor. hahah.today was just about sleeping and chilazing after our hilarious christmas eve. i hope everyone else had a good christmas, happy holidays guys, see you in 08!
today was chill. sweeney todd with the carrillos. sooo good. gruesome, but good. alot of flinching on my part. haha. then some shopping and baking cupcakes at kathryns house. man, cupcaking is hard! hahah. anyways, then people start showing up. victors all spify, and then jon and michael come. deng michael with his nice ass cupcakes. hahah. then travis, hava, and nikita. we just chill in the living room, eat a few cupcakes, watch love actually, hairspray, and some lesbian thing on logo. some dancing, singing, lots of talk about sweeney todd and random stuff. white elephant was chill, no one really took anything from each other. lots of food and giftcards, haha. yeah, it was nice to hang out with some of the lunch group. love them fersure.
well, tomorrow, im off to LA for my yearly christmas/new years visit. pretty exciting. but i gotta get alot of stuff done! hope i dont forget anything!
man, i have no idea what im gunna do now. like, i don’t know what im working for. well i do, but i dont. doing stuff for myself just isnt enough motivation for me. like, i loove going to class and learning something. i like doing those exercises that help you apply what you need to know. but, i hate being judged for one moment about this cumulative knowledge. its soo pointless to me. they dont set goals for me, they just stress me out.
i didnt finish my calc test today and barbolla didnt accept my emailed long form. like, ahhh. what the heck. maybe i just need that one acceptance letter. maybe that will be motivation enough to doing really well. just. deng. even graduation isnt a motivator for me, probably because it does define what i will do in the future. i know i will graduate, but i wanna know what comes after that. after all this crap, and we all move on to someplace we all feel will make us happy. im really not that happy anymore. ehh, probably my own fault, having my own little tragic flaw of not knowing what the heck to do in many, many situations. it is true that delayed reaction leads to tragedy, or something like that, i dunno, my hamlet essay was kinda wack.
at least some things went well today. dance production was encouraging. thanks to the people who liked my dance. and senior proposal passed too, thank goodness.
wel, not i need to chill and figure out what im gunna do this break and in the new year.
how lovely.
