haha, just for the record, this isnt about the mmm i talked to you about, kathryn. haha.
so im drinking my green tea, which is quite mmm. lately its been a routine for me to drink tea, no matter the temp, like 4-5 times a day. its kind of a lot to drink that much, but some people drink coffee like 10 times a days so its not that back in comparison. anyways, tea its pretty good for you. and it chills me out. like alcohol from some just to relax, but without my judgement being impaired and getting some antioxidants in me too.
i really need this tea. like, im so off today. like i started crying in dance. seriously, tearing and sobbing and the whole enchilada that comes with crying. i was just soo mad at myself. like todays warm up was tough, and i just gave up. not totally, just rested for two seconds and kept on doing it. but still, to me it was like giving up. failing myself since i didnt push myself as hard as i could, which is pretty much the story of my senior year. this may seem totally pointless to some, but its a big thing for me. i want to be motivated. i want to be the student and person that i once was but im not. and i just dont know how to get back there again. its theses situtations that make me want to go back in time, get my game together and keep it. cuz obviously, if i still had my shit together, i wouldnt be crying in dance.
i need another cup of tea.
maaan, senioritis at its finest. so not cool. i like to blame my house for not being a place of intense intellect and motivation to do work, wich is partially true, but its mostly me and my want of chillen after school. im scared that i will be a mess when college comes around, because i know i won’t have the proper work ethic to survive. sucks how when i was younger, i got my shit done. now, im just, ehh. i’ll get to it. yeah, procrastination gets everyone, but im scared mines swerving totally out of control to the point where i’ll live my life according to the lateness and i just wont care about anything academically or anything workwise. but, i dont want to think like that. now, everyones says that im going to stop procrastinating, and 8 times out of ten, they fail. i dont know how those 3 out of ten do it, but props to them. because, i better wooooork like hell to be like them.
so, im eating french toast that my mom made and rice krispy treats that i took fromm last night. man, i have like, asb ball hangover seriously. (non alcoholic, i promise.) just energy wise and physically, like deng. ive never felt so beat up after a dance before. but it was pretty funnnn! okay recap.
went to nikitas to get ready with nikita hava and nicole. got ready prety early. chels and chris came over. haha poor chris feeling awkward in a room with a bunch of girls getting ready for a dance. or it could be his fantasy. who knows, haha. anyway, chels and chris left and we finished up and headed to kathryns. victor, kat, diana and megan were there already.megan and i wre totally crip and blood colors. my date and i were gang members, haha. (michael was my date, but he couldnt go. :[ ) k, then pictures. endless amount of pictures. paparazzi! haha.
k, then megan and i went to the restaurant while everyone else went with nikita and chelsea. megan and i got a little lost, but eventually met up with everyone.
k, so this was our dinner group:
me, megan, kathryn, victor, nikita, ryan, emily, travis, chelsea, chris, diana, jordon, nicole, hava, barbara, monica, and edgar.
big group. big tab. wierd tab. and we had to pay for water. good food. but not going there again. haha.
k, then asb ball! all of us sharing this itty bitty table. haha. it was really cute. very colorful, and they did have soome nice food. cholocate fountain? cupcake bar? random sliders? yeah. very nice. willy wonka!! so cute.
so k, first thing, say hi to everyone and their mom. our group picture was very nice, and had most of the group. then, more hellos, checked out the food, and then danced!! alright spots of music, some random stuff, but yeah. voting was in there somewhere, and pictures. and then more dancing. haha. making fun of the "universal move." hahaha. we're just jealous, haha. mmhmm.
then after, some went home and some went to dennys. there was a little shady slip between people and people, but i wont mention names. denny was tiring. but a good time to chill. theres alot of people at dennys at 1 in the morning. then, casa time.
overall it was fun. it was nice to see some people you usually dont see that often, (jesse, philip, and megan!) and just have a chill time with friends. no major drama, just a little wackenss thats unnecessary. but other than that, wooo!
im excited for prom! :]
