by: kteezy.

everyone has some sort of vibe, some wavelength that kinda catches on to another wavelength, thus forming a connection. (haha, thus.)

it’s quite comforting that while sometimes you aren’t connecting with certain people like you used to, you making new ones that show you new perspectives that kinda inspire you to respark the previous relationships. it’s this weird balancing act, something shifts this way, another force tries to shift everything into proportion, may go wrong may go right.
this first quarter has shown me sooo many flaws in my sense of balance. at least i notice them, right? i know that quite a few of my connections are wavering. schedules, my choices, their choices, vibes are changing, priorities are changing etc.  speaking of priorities, i need to put mine back in check. deeeyum. too scatterbrained.
anyway, i know that i haven’t been connecting as well with people as i used to, which makes me pretty upset, mostly at me since i have issues with priorities and balance. i’ve been kinda bummed about it for a few weeks now, right up until a couple days ago, when i had a very inspired talk with my kbro simbol. we talked about our views on paradise, passions, how we could use what we love to better whats around us. good talk. we had alot of the same perspectives on things that i haven’t really talked to anyone in a while about. perked me up, since i haven’t talked to anyone lately about those things, even better that it was my kaba bro. shed a new light on things that i havent realized in a looong time, maybe even since moving to irvine.  talking to simbol made me see that if i could make a new connection, i can fix already established ones. thanks for the talk kbro! hella put me in check.
so, i guess this break has already been somewhat productive in putting me into the right mindset, for now at least. talks with homeboys and my cousins since im with them now have been very inspiring and comforting to have since ive kinda been a hot mess for a while. thanks peeps. if only i was as admirable as you guys.
now, to fix a few things…

monday: spectrum with richard, jeannie, and ryan bosia! i miss ryan, i don’t get to see him too often. good bonding time though :] practice this night. intense transitions.

tuesday: presented a monologue this day.  role playing in aids discussion, haha hilarious. took an HIV test for the first time. that was interesting, haha. thanks for those who took it with me! got my haircut from aimee this day! i like it, thank you aimee! then, shopping at spectrum with mcia people! good times. red robin’s was fun too :] sorry summer that we didn’t make it to your show!

wednesday: fun times in irish this day. practice this night from 9-4;30? something like that. tiring, but fun. took a shower after practice, did an almost all nighter.

thursday: stage combat in drama today, hella bomb. mcia’s first performance was this night! we were late because rommel had class, but we got there just fine. hava came all the way from long beach! :] the club was fuun, with mcia and otero peeps. after, we all went to dennys. goood times :]

friday: somehow got called a dumpling in humcore. laura showed us the parody of single ladies with justin timberlake, hahah. michi’s class was fuuun. didnt remember it when i had to though. soko’s 21 and fierce night was this night! goood times.

saturday: retreat!!!! ahh so much fun. photoshoot was first. long, but fun, and funny. hahaha. theeen workshops with victor kim, jaimie, and marlo asis. fyi, my name from richard is now crazy legs. haha, i cant break for my life, but wacking is tight. and marlo’s piece was fun. theen, break, and jtong took me and lena to sokos. dinner, then scavenger hunt with my pals :]:] i don’t think they even know how much i love them, real talk. like, i don’t know a time since even before i fond out they were my pals when they didnt try to help me, i only wish i could do as much as they’ve done for me so far. actually, that applies to the whole team, but of course, esp. my pals. but yeah, memories were made :] oh yeah, and my beads! beads for the moments from summer, richard, and sam! and i saved the last two for pals kduh and rommel, because they goood people. after was the web thing of moments, and talks from big pal jason and marlo, and words from the coords and captains. saw the book of mcia for the first time, kinda cool to know that the zetas will be in there next year. then, some drank, some didnt, i had good talks with my name twin and others. then home, watching out for my best friend richard, and good times with aimee and richard in his room.

sunday: saw mother today, since she had stuff to give me. went to see take me out, dude, hilarious shoow, yet serious, but overall, sooo good, you dont even know. many naked men too, haha. maybe one of my favorite plays now. met seth and megan, they tight, and saw my staffer wes! that was fun. now, im back in otero, chillen, waiting to play cranium.

even if it’s just been like two weeks since officially being part of the team, mcia been suuuch a positive force. the returners always say how great the zetas are and how glad that we’re there, but i don’t think they know how much we love them and how we look up to them, all of them, in some way. like, all of us want to get better for the good of the team, and the zetas have mad love for each other, having practices, and just chillen. the returners are definitely a motivator for us because we do look up to them. y’all seriously dont know how much the zetas love mcia :] like, i don’t take any moment with someone for granted, especially with these people. alll love, yo.

monday: already made my day: no humcore lecture :] then Korean BBQ with otero! fyi, im a boomb chef :] ahha. more mcia.
tuesday: veterans day! time to remember those who fought for us, the no school thing is just a plus. office hours with laura that confused me even more. zeta’s first zeta-special practice. i love you guys :] and thank kduh for feeding us, aha. my skit audition for pcn was this day. i have to be a car, a broken transformer fighting a carpenter, and did a monologue, a scene, and i saaang. that night was game night with mciaaaa. rock band, scattagories, and cranium. sam is the best partner! haha, fun fun.
wednesday: made turon with the k-fam at ate jana’s! fun fun. and did postermaking, and kareoke. haha best song: stand up by ludacris. yeayuh. haha. another mcia practice.
thursday: k-fam potluck. k-bro simbol is a bomb turon fryer. aha/ probably the first time our whole fam was there. i like them :] yaay for good food ;] and trying to figure out how many songs has the word girl in it. haha.
friday: final paper due! thank goodness thats over. wacking in michi’s class today! haha matching with arielle and charise ;] jeannie decides to stay this weekend!
saturday: another mom breakfast. then just chillen and such with otero. ushered that night for west side story: soooo good. ushering is fun too :]

today: lunch with david and choon! then, everyone leaves for wicked :[ probably do homework and laundry before the zetas have another practice before mcia practice.

wow, this quarters going by pretty fast.